I think I got food poisoning from KFC ngl. I woke up to my 7 a.m alarm with an intense vertigo attack. My eyes were moving involuntarily to the right with so much violence and a nausea was building up in me. I proceeded to throw up some intestinal juices that I had in my pretty empty guts and spilled tears from my eyes as I gagged, staring at the toilet bowl that reeked of chemical products, making me feel even more nauseous. I stayed in my mum's bed. Even though I was still spinning and my nausea was still very much present, I ended up falling asleep for another 3 hours. I woke up to my mum reading beside me. It felt nice. It was warm. I dreamed of something that I can only recall fragmentally. I watched Ghost in bed and pined for a relationship (again). After it ended, my mum made me some breakfast consisting of a slab of bread with some cream cheese and a cup of black tea and had it in bed. I then proceeded to throw up said breakfast. Shame.. I was really hungry stillTT My mama stayed with me the entire day. I love her so much bru :( We went downstairs and i read some strange weather in Tokyo by Hiromi Kawakami (I recommend it honestly, don't let the age gap between the characters drive you away-not to say that im condoning it, but i see it more as a demonstration of human connection). I should've studied today. This is literally one of the most academically important years in my life and Im on the brink of my life super yippee. I've been struggling so much with my health in this past year. Hope i dont die🙂 Im going to make myself some chamomile tea now and get some work done for my coursework since i dont feel as nauseous. Gonna take a shower too before bed then go eepy. Going to ikea tomorrow. I miss going into the showrooms and smelling the place. Idk what it is abt ikea's distinct smell but i love it so much, its intoxicating. Goodnight/good morning/good day tho. hope its going well

My cat ella dominating me once again. im so tired but i cant push her off to turn off my lamp or change into my pyjamas 🤧welp what can you do. gotta keep my baby happy

Went to ikea and got me this flower lamp that i've been yearning for since a couple of years ago. I remember seeing it in one of the showrooms once when I was younger and it instantly left me in awe, so much so that the feeling has followed me since each time i go and visit ikea. Idk why but it makes me feel like I'm in that one Barbie mobie named Mariposa: just living in a flower englufed in soft and warm colours. Very nice i like.

Saw mr beast plastered on a school bus this morning as i was walking. day fuucking ruined😭😭😭

Bought my first prom dress today (bagged her for so cheap too i cant believe it). I've had it hung on my wardrobe door since i came back a couple of hours ago and I can't stop staring at it. What a beauty. I can't believe I have something like this in my possession. Kind of feels like I'm experiencing a fragment of a universal female joy of having a new dress to admire for the first time. It doesn't feel too bad. What prickly feeling, though. Every time I see it i prickle with a subtle excitement. I also have a new notebook in my possession. She's really beautiful and chunky and open up so easily, ykwim? Ypu open the notebook and it just lays flat. i love notebooks like these. I cant wait to fill it up during the summer break. I should be doing some cleaning, but I've recently had a huge fixation on living in France, and more specifically (and typically) Paris. I know its quite cliche but idk. I've been drinking Paris life vlogs like they're water recently. Last year it was Berlin and this year it's Paris. I didn't expect myself to like it either honestly, but the more i see it, the more i want to be there, and the mkre i want to be there, the more i imagine myself living there, which has led me to scrolling on SeLoger for "cheaper" apartments there. GAHAHHH I NEED TO STUDY HOW DO I EXPECT MYSELF TO GET THERE IF I DONT STUDY. Gonna go now 😔 Fare the well

Exam anxiety is killing me currently. Specifically for englsih language and literature, which is so crazy to me since they are my two most liked subjects. I've consistently been scraping Cs and Bs (if im lucky) but man whenever i take mock exams outside of a school environment for these subjects??? As. i dont get it. i got full marks on a 40 marker today. why must it be like this brahhh😭😭😭 i just want to do well doing some bio work currently. ive not been near biology in so long and i barely study for it. but ive gotta lock in nkw. all i rmemeber from my bio lessons is me and my friend crying laughing so yerp. probably gonna go eepy tho since im too tired fare the well

Had an english language exam today and did so much better than I ever thought i would. I finished 20 minutes early (also the first paper to finish in time). I really hope all goes well bru🥲🥲 i thank my cat for getting me through it. alll she did was cuddle with me the entire morning and it put me in such a good mood Bio exam tomorrow 🌚 huge stack of questions to get to today yey... so tired tho had like 5 hours of sleep welp. fare the well