"Where'd All The Time Go?" Dr. Dog
A very bittersweet song, and entirely fitting for me this week. I'm officially leaving behind my childhood today. 18 years of living, a small number in comparison to most but a big one in comparison to others.
Its a bittersweet moment for me. I've waited for this day for so long. I've wanted to get out for for even longer. I love my family, truly, but... there's some things that have been going on for pretty much my whole childhood that I'm ready to get away from. But that also means I kinda got robbed out of certain parts of my childhood, and its a little sad that, now, there's no more time to make up for it.
The years of my childhood are gone now, and the long road of adulthood lies before me. I can't go back. I can only go forward. I step into this new chapter of life knowing I leave behind a version and part of myself that I know deserved better. I can't fix it for her, that version of me, but I can try to live as she wanted, and dreamed for me to.
I start this day looking back on my life, all the happy memories, the sad ones, and the ones I wish I could forget, and I ask myself: where did the time go?
