i really did not want to post this because i feel like i didnāt have a good study day. but iām trying to be honest with myself first and so that comes with my sad admission of the fact that i only did like 1 hour of studying and work despite being at the library for 6 hours.
however, in a sea of lows there is one high!! i was able to get my poem for creative writing finished and printed. might post it here if anyoneās curious (LMFAO probably no one).
iām not upset at myself, but i do realize iām causing the problem. it feels like i have executive dysfunction, especially because im such a perfectionist, but i donāt have ADHD.
when i take notes, it doesnāt matter what form: digital or physical notes, i have a NEED to make everything look perfect and when my handwriting isnāt the way it matches in my head i canāt focus on note-taking.
itās a problem and i really need to just,, forget notes needing to be some āpinterest worthy aestheticā and that no one is going to be looking at my notes but me.
