its 2 am and i just got out of the shower and heard whispering from my parents room. i know they are talking about me. my mental health, my offer from qut, my future, and just in general what they are gonna do about me. i know i am stepping on a thin line everyday and that line threatens to break. i am living because i don't want to break my parents hearts, i know they have mentally prepared themselves for the worst since a long time ago, and my mom claims that she will accept it one day if i ever do pass, but i know deep down she won't be able to. no one around me will. i am standing in darkness where there is light at the end of the tunnel, everyone around me thinks that that light is within arms reach, but only i know that i can't march forward.