i may not understand or know what you’re going through but as any body else I suffer from my own problems in this dunya , i try to hold my self up and face the world bec life was never meant to be easy that’s why it’s a test ( never forget that) but oneday when life hits extra hard i fall , I don’t get up right away i stay there for a while i cry , I overthink, i try to run away from reality, i feel like I don’t want to live anymore but then I remember surah الضحى I remember how even if this whole world stood against Allah swt is there he never leaves my side and he never leaves yours I remember each and every time i hit rock bottom but he didn’t leave me once even his guidance and mercy always comes even if it seemed to be late to me sometimes but it was alwa just the right time, he welcomed me with forgiveness even when I didn’t deserve it , so whenever you feel like u don’t want this world again remember he created you for a reason, remember even if everything and everyone turned their backs on you he doesn’t so when you feel that way reach out to Allah he created this world I don’t think your problem is hard for him to solve