When they ask me about what am I afraid of, but I can't say I'm afraid of living, death, losing someone I love, won't be able to live my dreams, lose interest in everything I love and everyone, I can't tell them I'm afraid someone will judge me for what I love or what I think about, afraid of always being not understood, loneliness, always stay the same, lose my faith in allah, won't be able to find my way, marriage, be a bad mother, choose a wrong man and live miserable life, I'm afraid I'll keep running and chase things were never meant to be for me , look back and regret all my life desicions when I'm older and always feel ashamed of myself. So I say instead I'm afraid of spiders