I don't like school. I was only ever "good" at it because of pattern recognition and I aced my english and art classes, but I never properly learned how to study. This didn't start to bite me in the ass until I got to highschool but I was too checked out to care. Now I'm in college and its affecting me bad, but I also don't care. I'm a walking contradiction, really. I say I don't care but then I fall behind and start failing, and suddenly the world is ending. And yet I do nothing about it. I know I cannot live like this--dropping classes when things get tough or just letting myself fail--and that I'm wasting my life, but ugh. Do I even want a degree anymore? I began my second-start semester last week and I'm already failing a class because i missed two discussion post due to my ass sleep schedule and procrastination. I don't even like the class, I don't like any class because I don't like school. I'm just ready for life to be over. Some people just aren't born with that drive to try, I'm one of them. The least god (or whatever) could do is give me a free pass out of here.