i did 4 hours overtime for work and im tired. only slept for 1 hour lol 🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀🍀 inner thoughts for the day: its always hurts to see someone so reluctant in doing what you want to do if they dont want to do it why cant they just be honest? its making me like a bad person for asking theres no enthusiasm at all in their part but if their the one whos asking i always say yes with enthusiasm. i guess the problem is me after all. i just expect to much, always too much, my anger is like a well thats so bottomless that i might drown on it i always try to let it go and kept it bay so it wont consume me, but on times like this the hurt the betrayal all the lies always comes right in with the anger that in my brain i feel like im going crazy but on the outside im smiling and telling the person im alright dont worry it doesn't really affect me, but i want to kill this person who had lied betrayed me i want to punch it in the face so hard strangle it so it wont breathe anymore a payment for everything every hurt every lie. well thats on my brain and sometimes i just want to die and just be over with it stab myself to death so it wont affect me anymore sometimes when my anger is soo bad, it turns into a a hyperacidity that i just start to vomit, holding it back destroys the body really