one day, i ever said that i regret my life because how life treat me badly... but now, i never regret my life and try to romanticize my life. even though it's not easy for me to forget how they even told me about how i am. I'm still being myself. even though I'm not easy to approach. not easy to be close. not easy to open my heart. I'm still me and I'm still trying my best. I'm trying to be kind. to open. to take that opinion.. that comment that i have to be this or that... i wanna push myself more. to forgive myself. to love myself... to stop being overwhelmed. what i want is i want to be alived. to forgive and to be loved, hey 21th...