they are tiring. rather than enjoy the music of who they stan, they want arguments and hate comments and pit the members against each other who are living their own lives, leading their own careers. like, i personally listen to tvxq (ot2) because my music preferences are in their music, and that doesn't mean i don't like and that i hate jxj (jaejoong and junsu). they are very talented everyone knows that. but not everything in life is personal, which these people struggle to grasp. with these fans they probably don't have anything to do in life so they resort to making everything an issue. their fandom experience is only complete when they get to rain on someone's parade. i like casual conversations and discussions on music, like which are your fave songs, the songs you don't care about, the artist's quality you love the most, areas for improvement—objective, thoughtful criticism, not to tear someone down. but these people are just so boring and unhappy.

one of my work tasks include categorizing a netizen whether they are part of a certain demographic based on their account which usually comes with little to nothing details. i take an extra effort by checking a lot of them only to end up being corrected, despite taking into account the only possible indicators. i feel kinda irritated because i saw in the chat just now that our team leader tagged me and my fellow writers to "take note" of the latest correction—but we are doing our best which feels nothing if grouping these people feels like shifting goalposts everytime! i feel like i am starting to see reasons to resent some parts of my job. additionally, i simply hate this economy. how the hell people make families in these kinds of salary grades? it's almost always tight on spending, no amount of saving and being thrifty can give you more margin.