you know when sometimes a song talks themes and you just fall in love with it? like, it's just *so* on point you can't even describe it and you become completely obsessed with it?
but you know when sometimes a song talks something completely random and so far away from your behaviors and life experience you just fall in love with it? I remember when this song came out. it was 2016. I was changing highschool and a classmate asked me: "you don't smoke, you never even fucked, why do you like this song so much?" and I was a bit stunned. it was true, I was a good kid back then but that song really appealed to me. fast forward, it's 2024, EIGHT (8) years later. I heard the song while coming back from my part-time job at McDonald's, it was late at night, and I was listening to my life long collection of liked song. this song came up. I started singing it by heart. and then, eight years later, the lyrics were *so* on point. I was struggling with a strange fwb relationship with my ex boyfriend; I was confused, sad, in a very dark place, and that song came to me like a gift from the heavens.
do you think it's some sort of destiny? like, your soul *knows* and you end up liking something just for.. foreshadowing (?)
two years later, this song came to my mind again, this time just because of the general idea of (translating literally) "enjoying the moment".
gosh, it sure has been a ride! but for a reason or another, I'm happy I ended up here, I'm happy my choices made me who I am today, I'm happy this song took me by the hand and was with me for, now, 10 years.
it really makes me feel the brick wall of people and memories I have in myself that shaped who I am today. it's something just so.. fulfilling.
