day 1, 2026: i choose this song for today. it's the beginning of a new year, a new chapter, and im scared. real scared because the past few years haven't treated me well. this year, im trying to have faith, or atleast trying to make my brain understand faith, the heart is still yet to know what faith is. this song has magic in it, i swear. it calms me down, makes me happy, gives me goosebumps but also stirs up so much in me. 2026, please be kind.

day 2, 2026: it's 2:30am, and last year's memories have flood my mind once again. this time, it's my birthday. i turned 16 last year, and like most, i didn't have a sweet sixteen party or a surprise birthday party, instead it was one of the most saddening days i've had in 2025. my friends forgot it was my birthday, i was in a fight with someone I used to call a close friend; whom I begged to stay, crying as the clock hit midnight. but, it was sweet too. sweet because some very special people comforted me, gave me handmade gifts, and showed me that I was worthy of love. so yes, 16 was very bittersweet. "bittersweet sixteen suddenly"

day 3, 2026: it's 7:30pm, about half an hour ago I went to buy a notebook and some stickers, it was a 20 minute walk altogether, and throughout the whole walk i listened to this on repeat. the song felt right, comforting, and as i decorate my phone with the stickers while my alexa plays the same song (on repeat again), it's just as comforting as when I was younger, and my dad woke me up at 6am, told me to dress up and took me to the forest on his bike. one of my favourite memories to this date.

day 4, 2026: i listen to this song when I want to sleep. it makes me calm, makes me feel as if everything wrong will be alright. i've been burdened with some stress recently and listening to this as I sleep makes me feel okay, like I'll get through it.

day 5, 2026: all of us are freaks. no matter how much we try to avoid being one, we nonetheless will always be one. freaks in life, freaks in relationships, freaks when we are alone and freaks when we are together. some hide it better than others, and some are pretty proud of being one. where do you stand?

day 6, 2026: i LOVE this song, I grew up listening to it but never really knew im listening to it until I turned about 13-14. this is what I would want life to sound like when im older.

day 7, 2026: i really love this song, the beat, the rhythm, especially the lyrics. as someone that's growing up with body dysmorphia and self hate, a specific lyric that mentions 'big fat hips' makes it hurt less somehow. very weird, i know.

day 8, 2026: i absolutely love this song, i've been hung up on it since the past few days and it's on loop for me. the beats are pretty quick in this one, but just a split second, 3 beats slow down, and it just transcends me to heaven each time. 10/10 recommended, please listen to it

day 9, 2026: "it's nice to hear your voice again", a need that will remain a dream for the rest of my life. call that friend, confess to your crush, make shit happen. that's what I get from this song because deep down i fear i'll start relating to this song much more than I am right now.

day 10, 2026: this is the ultimate love song out there. lately I've been feeling a little too single, and with valentine's around the corner it's getting worse. I've always imagined myself dancing with my partner on this song, in our living room while the sun sets. it's just us, and everything for a moment is perfect. when will my fantasy come true? i have no idea, i only hope that it does come true and doesn't fade away with time.

day 11, 2026: this song is so, "im growing up, i know it and im sure I don't want to". "you were only 17" is going to get relatable pretty soon, lord help me.

day 12, 2026: taylor is a genius, she really is. the song, the lyrics, everything about this is so gut wrenching. lately I haven't been listening to her because as someone that believes in standing up for things, taylor hasn't spoken a single word about any of the genocides happening around the world and that is something that is so unexpected of taylor. anyways, even though I don't listen to her as much as i used to, this song is always in the back of mind, continuously rolling.

day 13, 2026: "when we get old will we regret this? to young to think about all that shit". i know im going to regret some things when i grow up, i know it's probably going to eat me up alive until i learn how to live with it, but right now, in this moment. im young, im free and i don't have to worry about it for a couple of years.

day 14, 2026: this song feels like hiding in a bathroom at a party because you're an introvert and can't gel with anyone there, all your friends have abandoned you as you sit in the bathtub listening to the commotion outside.

day 15, 2026: i fucking hate this song. i fucking hate it so much that i love it with everything in me. that's all.

day 16, 2026: i remember being 7 or 8, singing this because it went really popular and everyone knew it. i didn't care about understanding the lyrics or finding out the meaning behind the song, but now that im older, the lyrics are so pragmatic. adele's voice is so soothing considering how hurtful this song is

day 17, 2026: oh simple thing, where have you gone? im getting older and I need something to reply on. im getting tired & i need somewhere to begin THIS COULD BE THE END OF EVERYTHING SO WHY DONT WE GO SOMEWHERE ONLY WE KNOW.

day 18, 2026: I've been in bed all day, listening to the smiths. i wokeup at 12 (yes i started my day at noon cut me some slack it's a sunday), and instantly put on the smiths. a very chaotically calm day, filled with songs, procrastination and sleep

day 19, 2026: it's a sunday, you're sitting with your friends, the wind is blowing lightly and all of you are talking about life and making jokes, whilst this song plays in the background.

day 20, 2026: one of the english songs i remember listening. i used to scream this with my friends whilst going back home. took full efforts to learn the lyrics and if you wake me up in the middle of the night and ask me to sing this, you best believe I will.

day 21, 2026: for once in my life, let me get what i want lord knows it would be the first time.

day 22, 2026: i love this song from my core, nothing could make me hate it. i don't listen to the police much, and I found out sometime ago that this song isn't really so romantic because it's based on obsession. the singer wrote this when he was going through a divorce. "every breath you take, i'll be watching you". everytime I listen to this song with someone I tell them this fact lol.

day 23, 2026: im away from home, at my grandma's house. the one person i really miss is my bestfriend. we both are die hard fans of tv girl, and every tv girl song reminds me of her in some way or the other

day 24, 2026: harry styles is back and i couldn't be more excited.

day 25, 2026: "where'd all the time go? it's starting to fly" it's weird how even after we're told that time flies, we still don't respect it. and once it passes its undeniably..passed.

day 26, 2026: scenery without solace is meaningless.

day 27, 2026: oh was I never enough? i thought im all that you wanted. nothing I can do, all I want is you.

day 28, 2026: i don't listen to troye sivan, but this was the first song that I ever listened to by him and I won't lie it's a great one. it's quite audacious

day 29, 2026: the way i would dedicate this song to a one true love which the universe didn't give me

day 30, 2026: i listen to this song for me, in hopes that I don't crumble when life is hard. i've crumbled a lot, i still do. but maybe somehow somewhere this song will get edged in my brain in the most heinous way that when life gets difficult again, instead of crumbling I'll be stronger than ever.

day 31, 2026: i am a bad friend. a bad daughter. i miss my dad. when will I see him again?

day 32, 2026: jane woh kaise log the jinke pyaar ko pyaar mila. humne toh jab kaliyan maangi kato ka haar mila!

day 33, 2026: can I call you tonight? this song makes my brain feel fuzzy

day 34, 2026: i went crazy and no one noticed. I begged to be seen and no one noticed. i sat in pile of my own sadness and no one noticed. i cried till I fell asleep and no one noticed.

day 35, 2026: i would put in all the efforts in the world if that meant I could see my partner for even just 10 minutes. quite devastating i don't have one.

day 36, 2026: this song makes my brain all fuzzy and blocks my thoughts

day 37, 2026: in the midst of my indie playlist that's put on shuffle, sometimes this song plays out of nowhere. i actually remember really well how i found out vapo no setor existed. i have a friend who's a huge car enthusiast, and he posted a sexy ass car to this song, and when I heard it i was immediately like "this needs to be in my playlist", so hence, it's now a part of my playlist.

day 38, 2026: i didn't know about this song up until 2024. i was on a trip with my cousins, minimal signal, no internet. my sister in law played this song repeatedly because it was downloaded on her phone. we sang like it was our last day ever. i miss those days.

day 39, 2026: we can't be friends but literally. a "friend" that disrespects me is not a friend.

day 40, 2026: this is the first song that got me into this sort of genre. i love it. the guitar solo at the end is to die for

day 41, 2026: i just bedrot all day too. my screen time is 12h (i know that's not good cut me some slack). finished watching single's inferno s5. that's it. a slow and relaxed day today

day 42, 2026: i think seasonal depression is returning. i feel it. it's hiding in the corner of my room, waiting to pounce at me when it's the right time. it should sit there for another 3 months, feeding on all the tears i cry and all the moments of anger and sadness i have in my room. it's watching, i know it is.

day 43, 2026: i have 2 exams tomorrow, and right now all i wish for is my life to sound like this song. the instruments, the melody, and lyrics, everything. one day I hope it does

day 44, 2026: im starting to listen to conan again. a mist of nostalgia

day 45, 2026: i hate people who come from rich families and think they own the world. the people who don't have any respect for money. the people who tease others for not having it.

day 46, 2026: i wanna love like the movies.

day 47, 2026: id sell my kidney to go to their concert

day 48, 2026: i feel so close to god yet so so far away.

day 49, 2026: listened to this on repeat as I walked home from school. today was the end of my exams. finals left now. im growing up

day 50, 2026: ever since the halftime show i havent been able to get this song out of my head at all. i literally learnt the lyrics by heart even though I cannot speak spanish just so i could vibe better on it. bad bunny's got my heart for now!

day 51, 2026: this song has been stuck in my mind since the past week or so and it just randomly plays when im tired or sad like?? ITS ALL OVER MY TIKTOK FEED TOO. lord help

day 52, 2026: if i love you less, will you love me more?

day 53, 2026: "tujhse mera deen dharam hai tujhse meri khudai". to fall in love with someone so deep that you worship them, you kiss the grounds they walk on and you love them so intense like no one has ever seen before. i genuinely feel like such love only ever exists in movies.

day 54, 2026: i never really liked this song because it was used everywhere and I felt it had top much hype. but one day I sat down and actually listened to it and it made me feel as if my childhood was perfect, with no heartbreak and no dents. atif aslam wrote this song describing his childhood and how he has grown up, and somewhere not having a very normal childhood that a kid should have, this song is oddly comforting.