i was overwhelmed lately, both at work and home, not sure enough if it was all because the people, the environment, but surely half of it cause by my own mind. since the beginning, keeping my emotional things hide behind everyone is the best skill in everyday life, from head to toe, from the small things to the big and huge mess around, bottled neatly, locked, even from my physchologist about the truth. i found it embarassing and ashamed, if anyone know about it, "what kind of reaction i will get? do they will see me down? or they find me a weirdo?"