so my mom has started learning how to stitch again.. so while the Teacher was Teaching her i just put a few glance on them and pata nhi konsi duniya ka confidence mere under bhai.. maine mere mom ko bola I'll stich a kurtti chatgpt se cutt kaise krte wo dekha aur mumma ki help se measurements kr liye aur stitch thodi bohot aati thi toh kr liya bhai I literally made this kurtti ikr it's a basic one but still I made it burhhh like Damm I'm so good at it though.. honestly it really like this kurtti

so mera exam hai kuch din mai PIC ( programming in c) ka and bhai mai ita bor ho gayi hu bcz 12 days ka time de diya hai clg walo ne Matlab bhai tension hi nhi aara mujhe kuch like ky problem hai mere yeh dar khof and all mere body chod k kyu chale gaye bhai come back plzzz mujhe ab tension aara ki mujhe exam ka tension kyu nhi aara Matlab mujhe tension aara but padhai krne ki iccha nhi hora meko i need help what to do ???? aisa ky kru ki motivation aaye mujhe padhai krne ka.. bhai Matlab mai rn lecture dekhri hu but 10 nar district ho gayi mai 😭😭

so aaj ka din kuch special toh nhi tha.. bs aaj meri ek friend ghr pe aayi toh who my mom doesn't like but still she is my friend.. aaj subha se mai kuch bhi nhi padh payi hu like mujhe abhi bhi 3 chapter's complete krne hai aur mai ky krri hu YT dekhri hu like jab paper mai mujhe din mai taaare dikhenge naa tab aakal aayegi meko sahi mai bcz aise toh nhi aari bhai mujhe ek toh ita zada time diya wala na clg walo ne trust me padhai krne ka maan hi nhi krra like bhai 12 din 6 chapter like what hell bruhhh. mera maan nhi krra bhai padhai krne ka.. aur is baat ka mujhe sansevieria zada tension aara ki bhai mujhe tension kyu nhi aara 😭😭 thoda toh tension aaye meko bhai ki mai padhai kr lu bhai 😭😭 bruhhh like what should I do 😭😭

toady i just feel very idk I'm just getting annoyed by everything.. I'm just so frustrated on myself that I'm just getting annoyed by anything literally if someone breaths next to me I'll get so annoyed by there existence dude what is happening to me, I don't feel like myself anymore like dude this is not me getting annoyed by every fuckin person i love.. i argued with my mom and my boyfriend and literally not logic like whatever they we're saying I just kept misunderstandings them and I know I'm misunderstandings them but I can't do any thing. like dude I just wanna run away from here-somewhere no one can find me just me and silences that’s all I want rn bcz my body, mind, heart, any fuckin organ i have inmy body doesn’t feel like the belong here.. bruhhh i just can't process.. like my mind has frozen.. it went numb.. amd honestly i can't explain this feeling.. my hands are shaking.. my head just hurts so badly I can't think properly. my vision is getting blur.. my phone feels heavy then anything thing.. it feel i can't handle my emotions i feel lost i feel helpless i feel my body slowly getting colder i feel my haed would blast

bored as fuck literally no motivation 😭😭

soo today i feel i little motivated to study but i still hate maths can't believe once I was the person who's favorite subject was maths and look aat me now like maths just leave me alone naa what did I do to you men.. well anyone who is reading this dude why you reading this what happened you can share wid me just stop reading this bullshit okkk you don't have to suffer 🫠 you're unpaid therapist is always here to help you 🙇‍♀️

i want a digi cam so badly I can't let you bruhhh-

disclaimer: this is not me I mean it is me but not me like understand bruhhh I'm not in my senses rn so just don't read this shit bcz it's nonsense 💯😭 well exam season socks.. I'm done with maths bruhhh maths will kill me one day I'll write my maths teachers name on my death note ( dude any one who is reading this plzz don't bcz I'm going crazy rn this is not me ) i just wanna complete these exams as early as possible though 🙃.. God save me 😭😭..

aaj mera maths ka exam tha and honestly we all hate maths ryt.. Still i studied for 10 days and still.. so panuti toh raat se hi shuru ho gayi thi.. hamare yahpe raat ko electricity ka koi kam nho hota normally but mere maths k exam k phele inko raat ko sab ki lights off kr k kuch toh kam krna hai i was like bhai din mai krlo yrr what is this behavior.. toh is chakar mao mere need ki aise taise ho gayi thi like mera exam tha 9:30 ko mujhe clg 9:00 ko pohochna tha jo ki mai pochi bhi but bhai ita tension. aur upper the a got a very big pimple between my eyebrows like it looks so bad and upper se uspe pimples pach bhi stick nhi hora tha.. toh ham sab exam hall mai gaye ab mere se ek binch chod k ek ladki bethi thi biggest pick me ever okkk so wo exam hall mai enter krti like koi movie ka sense chalra ho ek dam slow motion mai aise baalo ko itrate hue and trust me every one in that class just rolled there eyes when the saw that drama. phir paper mere hath mai aaya starting ka aata tha mujhe but half galt likh k aayi bcz half steps yaad hi nhi the mujhe.. aur mujhe mere samne wale pe ita gussa aara tha bhai ki ek toh teko aata toh bhai bata ne de garib ka bhala ho jayega.. then some how exam end huaa mai Bahar gayi phir my classmates we're discussing the paper okie bhai ek ladki she's my friend bhai wo hai ek topper bachi okiee and she's savage as well like teachers ko roast kr deti hai wo.. nvm.. lets get back toh the topic toh usne jo jo bola bhai mai wahi demotivate ho gayi ki bhai kuch bhi likha wala maine paper pass bhi ho gayi toh mai khush.. phir mera maan nhi tha waha ruk ne ka toh mai ghr aagayi.. and thoda fresh hone k baad.. mai aise phone dekhri thi and mere aakh lg gayi bhai trust me ite sahi neend aayi but ab next exam ka tension hai ab dekhte hai next exam ko ky hota hai :)

Today it was my PIC exam.. so aaj ka din bhai ky hi bolu mai phele toh mujhe subha uthne ko late hua phir bhi mai jaise taise kr k ready hui.. phir mera Uber book nhi hora tha.. toh mujhe half way walk kr k jana pada phir mujhe auto mila thankfully. clg pochne k baad mai sidha mere classmates k pass gayi phir ham log exam k liye gaye exam hall mai bethi mai aur mujhe khud se zada tension tha ki mere samne wala banda aayega ki nhi bcz wo insaan kafi late aaya bhai bcz pure class mai he was the only one jisse mai ans expect kr sakti thi bhai ( hala hi wo kutte ne bataya nhi ).. paper kinda acha gaya.. phir mera paper toh ho gaya tha but phir bhi mujhe bohot der tak bethna pada bhai bcz mujhe questions paper chahiye tha literally mai exam hall se teacher k baad Bahar nikali bhai. phir mai ghr aa gayi bcz clg mai ruk k bhi koi Matlab nhi tha..

burhhh it was bad like super bad I was fuckin prepared okiee but that teacher bruhh she was asking so random question ok.. and when any one of us answer he be like " nhi yeh answer hi nhi hai aisa ho hi nhi sakta" i was like auntie hamko maff kro hamko Jane do..

well it was nice i enjoy spending time with him and our so called friends ( who are snakes 🐍).. didn't click alot of pictures bcz my makeup wasn’t the way I wanted it to be.. I didn't go to my classmates and honestly I kinda regret that but this okieee.. in short i was fun

well it was a fine finish day nothing special though today I solved a question paper and was to exhausted to do more.. ijust need sleep but I'm not getting enough sleep and God knows whyy bcz I literally sleep 10 hours and still wanna sleep like wtff burhhh okie so that's it for today