looks like I'll be rating a lot of things here. before anyone starts wondering, I thought I'd make this little guide. we all experience things differently, and these stars simply tell mine ☆ - I wish we never crossed paths ☆½ - not for me ☆☆ - at least I finished it. I survived, but probably wouldn't do it again ☆☆½ - kinda boring, but it had potential ☆☆☆ - just alright. not too bad, not too good ☆☆☆½ - now we're getting somewhere ☆☆☆☆ - really enjoyed it. I might come back to it someday ☆☆☆☆½ - so close to becoming a favorite ☆☆☆☆☆ - definitely a favorite. I'll keep coming back to this

most people leave the cinema talking about the action scenes, the post-credit scene or who's going to appear in the next marvel movie. I leave with an existential crisis and some notes in my phone. walking out spider-man: brand new day, I couldn't stop thinking about something in my opinion, this movie wasn't really about superheroes. it was a tutorial on how to start life again. underneath the suit is peter parker, a young man who's lost almost everything, yet somehow still gets up every morning and keeps going. here's the notes I wrote: 1. the loneliest thing isn't losing someone. it's being the only one who remembers in this scene, when MJ looked peter in the eyes and told him she didn't love him, I nearly stood up in the cinema. peter remembered every moment they'd shared, every sacrifice, every joke and every version of the future they once imagined together. meanwhile, she remembered none of it. imagine locking eyes with someone who once knew every corner of your mind. someone who could tell something was wrong before you'd even opened your mouth. someone who knew your worst habits, your biggest dreams, and every version of you that existed before life slowly changed you. and then they look back at you like you're a stranger. I don't know if there's a lonelier feeling than that 2. we become part of other people's memories more than we realise the film made me wonder whether we're all just walking collections of one another. we spend years building little archives with people. like the inside jokes no one else understands, conversations that last for hours, or the way they can hear something's wrong just from the way you answer the phone. maybe none of it feels important at the time. until one day it is. like peter still carried every memory of MJ and ned, for years 3. life keeps moving whether you're ready or not peter lost aunt may, and there wasn't one final conversation or one last hug. grief doesn't negotiate. then there's MJ and ned. peter didn't lose them in the way we usually think about loss. they're still alive, still there, making memories and moving through life. they're just doing it without him. it made me think about how often we treat time as though it's guaranteed. watching peter reminded me that life doesn't pause because your heart is broken, and neither does time 4. peter parker still chose to be peter parker this was the part that stayed with me the longest. peter had every reason to stop. nobody remembered what he'd sacrificed. nobody knew everything he'd lost. the people he loved had built happy lives without him. yet he still got up next morning. still put the suit on, still chose kindness. I think most of us spend our lives hoping someone notices our efforts. we want people to remember what we've done for them, how much we've loved them or how hard we're tried. peter didn't get any of that and carried on anyway. maybe that's what being a hero really is. it's not about saving the world, but refusing to let the world take away the goodness in you 5. how this movie talked about (re)start life I felt like this movie was about grief. all the phases, I felt like they were metaphors. like when the power takes over the personality, I saw it like a depression and grief taking over yourself. how he was struggling with the changes, with his feelings. but at the end, he figured something important. he embraces himself, both as peter and spider-man. as if he were learning to make his peace with himself and start to live his life as a better version of himself I walked into the cinema expecting another spider-man movie (and Sadie Sink ofc lol). but I walked out thinking about memory, how fragile time really is, and embracing oneself. and perhaps, the thought stayed with me because I kinda related, and it gave me like third person view of my current life where I tried loneliness and figured things out by myself. but peter words to jean stroke like a lightning "just because we lost something in our lives, it doesn't mean we have to do this alone. trust me, I've been trying. it doesn't work" I believe this movie is dedicated to those who are trying to move forward after heartbreak, setbacks, and feeling like life isn't the same anymore. the idea of brand new day reminds me that the past doesn't have to define what's next. it's about carrying lessons, not the burden. even if nobody knows your story, you keep going, one step at a time. it's about knowing how to carry your scars to a future worth living