Listening to this currently. It's so relatable, so nostalgic. I'm only just really discovering PinkPantheress. I love this song already.

It's really gloomy today. And I hate gloomy weather, but now I think it's not that bad. I'm sitting on the Verandah and writing haikus. The Writco app is down, and it's just so frustratinggggggg! Almost, 80 plus of my poems (and other writings) are there. I've got say... 70 backed up in my Docs thankfully, and they've said they'll soon fix it. Today's going slowwwwww.

I'm TAYAD. I'm EKZOSTED. I miss my dad, and I want to hug him, but guess where he is? You guessed it right... oceans away. I don't know what I'm feeling, it's just a whole lot of things. I don't even know. I was just thinking about how I want to do a lot of things in life... I'm a perfect example of feeling everything and feeling nothing.

I'm still going to embark on the adventure after all. After everything, I still was posted far away. On the 18th. *cue loud, unhinged screaming!

SEUNGMIN IS SO FINEEEEEEE!!! And I love his voicesoo much. I learned that he was so insecure of his smile, especially when he wore braces. And I relate to that sooooo much. I'm still learning to love my smile, and to smile without covering my mouth. Sheesh, there were times I hated my teeth and my smile so much. And I love that I'm now learning to smile without feeling the need to hide, just like seungmin.

This song is so bittersweet. And melancholic, and nostalgic.🤧 Takes me back to the good old days.

Exams are officially beginning next week. I just pray that I'm not posted far. I'm really not looking forward to an "adventure". Our last mock exam is on Monday. I feel like I'm going to break many people's hearts.

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I saw a short video on this yesterday. I might post it on Tumblr, the part where Miwako said she's tired both spiritually and mentally. It has minimal dialogue, and focuses on the atmosphere, nature, her inner thoughts. I just love the movie in ways that I can't put in words. Okay, I think I might cry.😭

I recently came back(?) on Substack, I haven't written on there for say... four months. And it's not like I don't have any stories in my drafts, I do, but in my bid to write happy stories, I posted none of them. I stayed up till 3 am today, writing. I'm writing, but not WRITING. Does that make sense? it's hard to explain. Also, this quote is my Substack header image. Gosh.

I'm a really bad Mayor. Just recently started taking my town seriously.🤧 I just didn't know how to arrange it. Also, I'm currently brokeeeeee. Good news is that I finally joined a good, active co-op. We're trying to move from the demotion list in regatta.

Took some pictures while coming back. Hunger was eating me, but I still had time to take pictures. Also, the school is so freaking vast. It made me just want to run and roll around. Alsoooooo, as I was writing this, I just came up with the perfect title for this record.😝😝😝🌝

So... I just had this idea of updating all the books I've read here as I redownload them. It's 386 books, by the way, with like 50 in my TBR, and they're all gone. So i redownload into my library, write what I think here and keep tendering my broken heart. It's like losing my own Library of Alexandria (Library of Kambili, in this case).

Currently standing outside waiting for my e-pin, something happened... a mistake on my part, but it's been clarified, so me (and some others) are waiting. My legs are hurtinggggggg. And I'm so hungry I could eat a cow.

You know those kind of friends that you won't talk to for like... two weeks, then they send you a "heyyyy girllll" message and you just update each other on what's going on. (I don't know why I'm writing with the second person pronoun.), but yeah, that's my relationship with Prisca. We had this little fallout though, talked about it and we just came back again. I went over to her house and I love that the first way we greeted each other is by laughing. it was funnnn!

I can't even begin to describe it.

This song reminds me of when it used to remind me of someone. Does this make sense? It was some kind of hopeless long distance shit that we got going on, and he wanted to be in a relationship... but I wasn't ready for that, we still remained friends (bad idea), then school got him, and got me afterwards... and we just drifted. Looking back now, I feel like our relationship was built on me always over apologizing for things. God, I don't even want to think about it. Gives me a nasty headache.🤧

Posting on Tumblr isn't all that bad. I used a name I've always loved for quite some time. And I just love that on all the social media platforms I'm on, my names are different and the same. On Substack, it's my first name, on TikTok, Instagram, Threads and Pinterest, it's a derivation of my first name. Here and X, it's my middle name... and finally Tumblr gets my fourth? name. 🥲😂 *skedaddles.💃🏾

Watching this after my exams! The edits I've seen so far are fireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!! "yearning day and night".

Happy New Monthhhhh. Today I got a really splendid surprise from a friend... and that was a pdf with the title: "Extension of the 2026 UTME exams", and my first thought was, "God, whyyyy?" because I didn't want any extensions, but guess what I saw as I opened the PDF ✨April Fool✨ 🥲🥲🥲 It's really my fault for opening WhatsApp first thing in the morning.