When they ask me about what am I afraid of, but I can't say I'm afraid of living, death, losing someone I love, won't be able to live my dreams, lose interest in everything I love and everyone, I can't tell them I'm afraid someone will judge me for what I love or what I think about, afraid of always being not understood, loneliness, always stay the same, lose my faith in allah, won't be able to find my way, marriage, be a bad mother, choose a wrong man and live miserable life, I'm afraid I'll keep running and chase things were never meant to be for me , look back and regret all my life desicions when I'm older and always feel ashamed of myself. So I say instead I'm afraid of spiders

Maybe I need someone to sing this song for me

I think life is as difficult as how beautiful the sky is

for how long will I keep looking for myself? I know when I look in the mirror I'm not here anymore. where did I go and how do I return...I don't know the answer when will I feel safe? do people see me? it's so easy for them to tell me to do something or your mind is overreacting maybe You sould try using your energy for something more useful. (If only I knew how) how to stop my thoughts, my fears and my haterd for myself I really wish I knew how My question is can't they see my eyes? how lost and scared they are can't they hear my voice? Do they not sense my fear through my words? or maybe how lonely I feel even when I'm among them ? No, they absolutely don't they're good at blaming me cuz in fact I'm a really bad person in there eyes even if they don't say it to me I know I feel And honestly I don't blame them cuz that's the truth

I don't know what I want to say now cuz at first when I made this account it was private just me and my thoughts or the things I love but it's not private anyone actually, anyways, Has anyone ever wished that time would stop? or even to disappear from this world? cuz I do everyday actually I don't know why there's no cure for heavy hearts they should invent a medicine for this also why there's no way to stop brain from thinking sometimes I feel I'm cursed or maybe it's just my fate in life to stay still and do nothing this is what I was created for sometimes I wish my thoughts would swallow me up so I wouldn't wake up in this world the next day I wish I was a different person a confident and very successful one or even someone who is kind to me. How many wishes I have I lost count! but still do nothing at all.

breakfast with my love (my bestie)💕💕💕💕

Warning: you should bring a tissue before watching

البسه دي جت تلعب معايا النهارده وبجد كيوت اوي كنت عايزه اخدها في جيبي 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭🐈🐈

awful season and awful ending 🤨🤨🤨

How beautiful the sky is ⛅💛

😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

My favorite drink in all seasons 🥹🥹🍫🍫🍫

النهارده يوم جميل اوي بشوف فيلمي المفضل مع شخصي المفضل وعايشه اسعد لحظات حياتي بجد🥹🥹🥹🥹

اشتريت دي عشان اعلقها في الشنطه وبجد مش قادره اتخطى كياتتها خايفه اعلقها يحصلها حاجه 😭😭😭😭😭

A beautiful movie with a lot of emotions it'll take you to another place I recommend it 😭😭😭