went rollerskating around the hallways after getting back for the clinic. i was trying to get sum cardio in, but the roller skates don’t really fit my feet anymore so they hurt like a bitch. oh but u know what else hurts like a bitch tho ?? falling face first on the cold hard floor !!! which i did while rollerskating cuz i wasn’t paying much attention. i was zoning out. so maybe next time i’ll climb our apartment stairs for cardio. fuck the gym. abt the hospital visit, i followed my dad around & he got the papers & talked to the doctors & i just stood next to him like an idiot. then he told me im having surgery next time i visit. uhh .. ok cool. ig. i asked if i’d be under anesthesia during said surgery & he said no. well .. shit. ok then. had to fucking study chinese again. I NEED MY TUTOR TO FUCKING DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!! fuck chinese fuck the tutor i hate all of u burn in hell PLEASE !! the lesson was horrific as it always was. i hated it. lately i kinda feel like i wanna die again ? idk ? or like just sleep all the time so i don’t have to live ? sorry i sound like an “ IT’S NOT A PHASE MOM “ teenager but i really feel like this ? ughhh it’s sooo cringe even im embarassed ~ BTW I MADE TWO NEW OCS LOL (๑>◡<๑) !! they’re characters in a visual novel im .. i’d like to say developing, but im just still just imagining it lmao … me & the 10292283 games i promised myself i’d make against the world ! one’s a love witch & one’s a witch hunter !! haven’t come up w/ names 4 them yet so feel free to leave suggestions :P also im working on an electric weekend zone utau teto cover ☆ tomorrow noon going on a road trip to visit my grandma’s in the countryside so i gtg, love u kisses byeeeee ╰(*´︶`*)╯♡