i Havent been posting. As much because ive been busy.. but I have an anecdote for today i got bored and some thoughts started Brewing. i Rhink im ending up broke in the Future. my current goal is to take Up a premed then Pursue being a doctor, said Premed being medical technologist because i believe Thats what suits my personality best out of the premeds available. medtechs make Very low salaries in Our country, hardly a livable wage. considering how extremely difficult the course Is, the blood Sweat tears and money id give to Graduate, it makes me Wonder why im Even doing it. its not Worth it if You have no passion. i Think its because saying im in medicine sohnds nice. It sounds like something my family would be proud of Its just the safest option I dont have A passion for any career. im jealous of People who can wholeheartedly say they have A dream job. if you asked me my honest answer would be I dont have one. nothing seems appealing to Me. if I already hate studying with every bone in my body. Why would i pursue being a Doctor when studying is what id have to do for 15 years. it feels Like i chose by taping career options to a board and throwing a dart at it and Picking whatever it landed on. because i was forced to Decide on a career in my teens. maybe I wont even pursue being a doctor at all. i think Ill start the course of being a medtech because i like the idea. then regret it because Its too difficult. just like that guitar i bought sitting in the corner of my room. huh.. I should pick That back up. ..