I do have parents , friends and someone i can share my thoughts w and talk w everyday. but i never speak my thoughts to em . not because i believe i don't matter lr that hey wouldn't understand it but because there is nothing to be said i have the same issues that come and go thro my life i might tell u about it once and u will try to comfort me , give me advices and talk me over it i would tell that i feel better Sometimes i do fr but i just know that i will live it again maybe in a month maybe tomorrow maybe not until next year i am not sure i only know that everytime i thought i am over it . i feel it again It's not that ur useless but i have already tried every way possible so there nothing new u could tell me . I just learnt to stop going over and over about the same thing to anyone or i will overwhelmed them w something that i normally forget unless i am living it but. there is the trick when u be your own guarden , savior and friend you attend to forget how to communicate and live like everybody else when u have a break down u can't decide if u should talk yourself over it or give yourself time you don't know if u should push yourself or take it easy i am afraid i am gonna break but i am more afraid of never leaving my comfort zone i am afraid to be the overwhelming person but also afraid to die alone and i just don't have the energy to explain myself and to put effort in wny relation