we went to a pho restaurant for dinner today (*´∇｀*) !! my mom made a comment abt how im always unsmiling when im with them. perhaps it’s becuz im not … happy ?!?? so im not … smiling ??!??? crazy ! … also smiling all the time would make me look like a creep lmao :)) i try to save my happy energy for when im around friends & online ψ(｀∇´)ψ ! it’s useless wasting my smiles around my parents honestly, i’ve already given up with them. [ i sound like an edgy “IT’S NOT A PHASE MOM” ] teenager lol .. im sorry ] later on the ride home she made a nasty comment abt my weight. it makes me wanna starve myself, but i always can’tt ugh it’s so annoying how i can’t control myself around food :/ we decided to visit a nearby cafe too. mom tried getting closer to me but like it felt weird so i told her to fuck off ( ok i didn’t actually tell her that but like yk ). why try after all this time lol ? the distance between us has gotten to far, it’s too late to close the gap. also like it’s so weird to think abt how she just hit me yesterday & today girlie is pulling this ??? yeah u can’t deceive me bro - anyway that’s it bye bye love uuu :3