I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

전체 공개 ・ 09.24

2026.09.23 (Wed) ~ 27 (Sun)

i loved loved loved how raw and vulnerable this book was, i felt so validated for emotions and thoughts i often have but suppressed them to not seem too dramatic :’) rip to the author, and i hope she knew that her book did what it intended to do and brought comfort to so many ❤️‍🩹 also, more quotes bc it’s not letting me add more than 20😠: - “I can do well today, or not. It’ll be an experience either way. And that’s fine.” - “Through turning my gaze, I learn that the low points of life can be filled with countless realizations.” - “When we lose our sense of hope in our own lives, we can also lose the many touchstones in our lives. We don’t want to do anything, be part of anything, or want to be with anyone.” - “All beginnings and endings feel so heavy to me.” - “I am too much of a worrier to focus on the happiness of the moment.” - “I feel our time is precious and happy, and our future that much more fearful and dark.”

Even in my most unbearably depressed moments I could be laughing at a friend’s joke but still feel an emptiness in my heart, and then feel emptiness in my stomach, which would make me go out to eat some tteokbokki

I wasn’t deathly depressed, but I wasn’t happy either, floating instead in some feeling between the two.

But the idea that I’m actually normal is somehow even more weird to me.

So, complain. Let others know how hard things are for you.

But the you of the present is looking at your life and past as if you’re a failure. When in truth, from the perspective of a younger you, you’re the very picture of success.

Try to enter situations, even ones you know will end in failure, just to experience failure.

To me, sadness is the path of least resistance, the most familiar and close-at-hand emotion I have. A habit that has encrusted itself onto my everyday.

Things will get better with time. Or no, everything is dynamic, which means life will have jump-for-joy moments as well as bad ones, going back and forth like the tide. If I’m sad today I’ll be happy tomorrow, and if I’m happy today I’ll be sad tomorrow.

I believe that the more I look into this strange being, myself, the more routes I will find to happiness.

To tell the truth, no one was looking down on me except myself

That human beings are three-dimensional is perhaps my favorite thing to say. But it is also likely the last thing I will remember in a bad moment

I’m sad, but I’m alive, and living through it. That is my solace and my joy.

It was impossible for me to imagine feeling warmth or comfort from most people. I also didn’t know how to not blame myself for weakness or faults

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You can enjoy the freedom of your own thoughts.

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Life is all about getting better and getting worse and getting better again, so getting worse is a natural part of life and I just have to learn to deal with it.

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As soon as I think, Should I do something?, I immediately think, I don’t want to do anything at all.”

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Even when I managed to accomplish something difficult, or when I wore a pretty dress, I would immediately decide my accomplishment was no big deal.

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I want to be the kind of person who can walk inside the vast darkness and find the one fragment of sunlight I can linger in for a long time.

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Because the human heart, even when it wants to die, quite often wants at the same time to eat some tteokbokki, too.

Funnily enough, the most consoling words I’d ever heard were these: ‘Why are you trying to be brave? Why are you trying to be confident? Just go ahead and feel what you feel. Don’t cheer up!’

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