tw: mention of death it's kinda crazy that the more I think ab kms the more that I am urged to do it. ik that there's still so many wonders in the following days but my mind genuinely focuses on the thought of kms and how will I proceed with it, if I should die tonight or go on. my mind is automatically closed on the beautiful possibilities and is just solely focused on deciding if I should do it today. before, I used to shrug it off and just dgaf but why am I proceeding to the rooftop now? I don't wanna die by my own accords and impulsiveness, I really hope I can still win over these negative thoughts.