i lost another baby.. she was indeed just a baby, maybe 1 or 2 years old. and i'm sure she wanted to live longer. and i was ready to help her. it looked like an external ear infection and it got her today. she didn't eat anything yesterday and only drank water. mum made her smell milk but she got nauseous :(. and today, by afternoon, we found her a little away from our home, in a corner of our neighbour's house. my mom told me: "daughter, i think she's dead". a part of me wished she was tired and just sleeping in that corner. unfortunately ants and flies were already on her.. and that too, in her eyes. my friend once told me: "i wish my kids have her eyes". i shooed away all the insects though, that's all i could do for her. well.. she was an energetic kitten. so active, i mostly couldn't match her energy. and what made her unique was that she loved kissing me and my mum! let's say, i'm sitting on a chair. she would jump on to me, grab my face with her paws (sometimes claws included, ouch) and either kiss my face or bite my nose! how adorable was she. i cried a little when i saw her lifeless body. i was not that attached with her but the pain isn't any less. i guess, what hurts the most is that i didn't even give her an official name. and silly me.. it's evening already, i just opened the front door and wondered where you are. i forgot. but then i remembered. i still see you on your favourite chair though. i couldn't take many pictures of you either. you were so hyperactive that you wouldn't sit still. the camera is on your face and you wouldn't pose at all lmao. we didn't hit 1 year, baby. so, i wish you reincarnate soon and find your way back to me. i promise i will take care of you more than i did. when i pluck the flowers to decorate cherry's grave, you would hang out near me. you must've reached heaven by now, i hope you met cherry! i'm like ∞% sure that she'll love you unconditionally!