전체 공개 ・ 09.07 ・ 스포일러 포함
2026.09.06 (Sun)
Now, I can no longer deny that I relate to the protagonist. His experiences and justifications for his deeds echo my own in similar shapes and hues. I don't know exactly how I feel about this horrid discovery. I think I should do something about it, but it's too complex of a puzzle. I don't even have the time and energy to fully comprehend it.
One of my tragic flaws is the compulsion to add some sort of embellishment to every situation—a quality which has made people call me at times a liar—but I have almost never embellished in order to bring myself any advantage; it was rather that I had a strangulating fear of that cataclysmic change in the atmosphere the instant the flow of a conversation flagged, and even when I knew that it would later turn to my disadvantage, I frequently felt obliged to add, almost inadvertently, my word of embellishment, out of a desire to please born of my usual desperate mania for service.
THE THIRD NOTEBOOK: PART ONE — p. 46
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