man, it seriously feels like every month that goes by I get a new "update" that changes how I think or act. i guess this is the beautiful part about being in your early 20's. my latest update is making me more detached from people, despite craving the connections, and it's making me work harder for my dreams which isn't something I'm complaining about! my field of choice is my passion, and even if the road to get there is long, I know I'll make it. it's still a battle to find a balance between my personal life and my student life, and it surely affects my mental health. there are many things that I'd like changed to have a better mental health... like close connections of real friends, a fixed bedtime, at least 6 hours of sleep, pre-made meals, new furniture and for my skin to get fixed. one day I'll get there!