the way i experience “reality” has been a bit weird (or at least more unfamiliar than ever) lately: i can switch between the feeling of one state and another depending on what i do (i did a lot of logical puzzles this morning, and that made me realize it even more) and what i think about (specifically what i choose to focus on, which is often how a certain domain works and what kind of cognitive abilities it demands to function) this (???) experience makes me realize that perhaps my map of reality has become a bit more developed. i can distinguish and feel nuances much more clearly and cleanly now, as if there’s no unnecessary mental fog anymore. i can also better distinguish whether something (or an output) comes from ego-rooted premises or from a clearer touch of truth in reality (both internally and externally) weirdly, this stage also makes me a little irritated by contents, music, or even podcasts, which is strange because just days ago i genuinely enjoyed watching song mingi focus on BAD and listening to audiobooks while doing treadmill 🧍🏻‍♀️ overall though, honestly, this is something i genuinely want to celebrate: that my mental model feels clear and clean enough to become much more sensitive to unnecessary noise 🎂💗💗💗💗💗👀 and because of that, i think i might delete my spotify haha (and maybe youtube too, also some other appsss) 🧍🏻‍♀️ (i’m still thinking about what something light i should update on repov, since i’ve been posting a looooot of reflections lately. that’s actually because i just haven’t been enjoying consuming those kinds of media anymore) (i wanted to watch Agent Kim, but i don’t think i do anymore)