watching soooo much of dean withers’ content rn it’s really pmo how real life ppl r this idiotic. [ we stan dean btw he’s so mother ] but seeing him made me want to be more educated too !! i want to help the world too ! also i got a haircut. got sum microbangs that look soooooooooooo cute :3 ALSO argued with ppl today which i haven’t done in a while so it feels super duper nice ~ tomorrow im visiting a mall with my friendddd *\(^o^)/* !! it’s gunna be saur fun im lit stoked oh yeah i pulled an all nighter to reset my sleeping schedule yesterday & rode my bike around my area at 5AM today. it was nice, the morning air but i crashed at noon & took a long nap … i haven’t been up in my music & shows & books lately which is kinda ehhh ^^ i wanna start a personal curricullum abt the study of jellyfish in the next month ! i will do it !! they’re my fav in the whole wide world. honest i want to become a marine biologist but im too dumb & stupid. im sad about that. i only have academic talent in english. nothing else. i want to help the ocean, i adore it so so much. but im lazy & stupid. my mom said i’ll only get to play this first month of summer break. aw. i don’t like that. it makes me want to kill myself again, & i don’t wanna return to that place. i’ve done so much to earn this summer break, even getting into the top school in my city. let me enjoy this. i don’t want all this. let me be. uhhh anyway wow i talk alot huh