I'm pretty sure I'll be back in school by the end of this month and I'm stressed af. I haven't done half the things I said I would this summer and on top of that I'm not even sure college is what I want. this year we'll be starting all the courses that are fundamental for my major and if I'm being honest I don't think I'm gonna be able to survive it. like, people who usually go into computer science have either one of these two things–at least in my experience– and that's either love for coding and heavily into the whole programming and math aspect of it or they believe it'll make them rich. and that's where my issue lies. I'm not a passionate person, I don't think I've ever in my life ever wanted or thought about something with so much love or passion that I was ambitious to do it/ go get it. I mean look at how I even ended up as a Cs major. I got placed at the biology department but my parents were so against it I switched unis and did my freshman year again lol, and I'm pretty sure any normal person will be bummed that they got held a year back but you couldn't pay me to give less crap about it bc I genuinely don't. I'm just moving through the motions of life with no care in the world and I know for a fact that a day will come where I'm going to have to face the consequences of my actions (all good and bad) and what then?