Have you realize how complicated things could be as your grow up? Everything went blurry all the time. Nothing is black and white anymore, aggressively shifted into grey uninvited. Nothing is wrong and right anymore, you'll always find a reason behind someone's behavior. And the worst part is, you'll always find it understandable. I always find myself as an unempathic person, at least that's what i thought. While the rest of my life is just positioning myself under other's shoes so i could always justifiy their action. Does it still count unempathic? I'll let you judge by yourself. But it's not only about others. The worst situation is when the grey is on ourself. Sometimes I'm good, sometimes I'm bad. It doesn't depends on how other see it, but it depends on how i choose to be to someone. I might act like a saint, and I might act like an evil too. But my inner thought heavily believes for the latter. If i choose to be evil for one time, would that be my whole persona for the rest of my life? Probably yes, but the problem is- Why it doesn't seem like a problem to me? Because why in the hell, someone with the most melancholic and high understanding like me would give up being a saint? Aren't those are the image people expecting me to be? And don't you like it? So why, are you more comfortable surrounded by hate instead of love? Is it because you're used to your self hate? Or- Maybe the saint version of you was just the image you build inside your head.