ive been wanting to write this out but i genuinely forgot about it so now im drafting it so i dont have to rationalize about what i feel and just... feel it next time it feels weird that someone i do not know personally just... been part of my life for almost 11 years now.. and he's just always kinda there (not like.. physically.. but more like... metaphorically..) like there are tons of stuff ive went through and somehow he's somewhat there... like.. giving me a moral support or just... being The Emotional Support Kpop Guy to me like 11 years is a pretty long time to be a fan of someone and like... being terriblly parasocial towards them (im well aware about it but like in my head we're like best friends so whatever) like??? imagine being 11yo... thats like enough to graduate elementary school bro??? thats wild i genuinely dont know what im supposed to say anymore but he's kinda that one person that I've always look up to, I'll check on him time to time even when im not specifically in the fandom.. i genuinely love and support him as a person and an artist and having to grow up together (in a way) makes it kinda hard for me to let him go?? (genuinely who tf am i.. nobody bro) ughhhhhh idk stay healthy man... i miss u already also this lil dude gave us this song when he enlisted (im so grateful but honestly its too much im SO SAD)