a month ago, one of my colleagues got married and held this super intimate private wedding at a hotel. somehow i ended up wearing a white kebaya because... well that's literally the only formal kebaya i own 😬. at first i was lowkey scared to wear white because i consume way too much korean and western wedding culture content online and they treat wearing white to someone else's wedding like a federal crime 💀 but honestly? Indonesian weddings don't care, so... 💁‍♀️ anyway, I did my own makeup using like a gazillion youtube tutorials and somehow served the cleanest Korean makeup look of my life!!! AKSJAJDJSJAJHD my most successful Korean makeup look ever because i looked SO STUNNNIINNGHG!!!!! BUT THE TRAGEDY IS… I CAN'T RECREATE IT ANYMORE 😭😭😭 i've tried. multiple times. same products, same techniques, same lighting, same playlist, same everything. but that makeup look was apparently a once in a lifetime divine intervention because why did my hands suddenly lose all their talent afterwards 😿💔 and somehow i styled my hair perfectly that day and now every time i try to redo it i end up looking like a clown. i'm actually grieving the loss of that face card. i mean... why does the makeup math only work once❓️🙂