i promise it’s going to be a hell short insight, still connected to the very last writing i was driving around the town and thinking about what the actual thing that makes me feels genuinely loved, with my current situation and experience. because i think even currently i have got to experienced everything forms of love that conceptually should answer my needs, but somehow i still feel hollow and not that easy to as simple as release something, then suprisingly the answer is to be “something”, without becoming “something” analogically, it’s like: to be able to cook, without becoming a chef to be able to write, without becoming a writer interestingly applied to almost everything perhaps, including as simple as to be able to learn, without becoming a learner forever and .. that’s not that easy to be found i mean PLS LET ME TO JUST PLAY AROUND EXPLORING (i love learning) WITHOUT HAVING TO BE FULFILLING AND MANAGING THINGS YET I STILL TRUST YOU THAT YOU WILL ALWAYS BE SAFE AND REMAIN