I will never get over this book. I will never look at life the same way again. It broke my heart into a million pieces. I cried all the way through — and I am still crying now, long after the last page. I fell in love with all four of them. Willem, Jude, Malcolm, and even JB ....each of them carved a permanent place in my heart in ways I never expected. Hanya, you are a brilliant writer... but I wish you hadn't written this. How could you do this to Jude? He deserved the entire world, and instead he had to endure a lifetime of pain and suffering that no one should ever know. And yet he loved so deeply, so quietly, so completely. That is what undoes me most. And the way she describes the feeling of losing someone forever is ... something you can never move on from and it makes you think a lot of about death and how people goes throught it. I lost sleep every night to this book. I stayed up until the early hours, I wished to add more hours to the night, and left every single session sobbing, not just from sadness, but from the sheer weight of it all. It is a beautiful book. Achingly, devastatingly beautiful. So poetic, so precise, so human. But it does not just move you it dismantles you. It reaches into your chest and rearranges something in there permanently. There are books you read, and then there are books that read you. A Little Life is the latter. It held up a mirror to love, to suffering, to survival and asked quietly: how much can a person endure, and still be worthy of tenderness? Jude St. Francis answered that question with his whole life. And I will carry him with me for the rest of mine. ~one of the most emotionally devastating novels ever written to the point that it'll make you furious. (ill add a lot of quotes later on)