we had an exam planned for tomorrow but it got postponed due to good weather. RAIN IS A SIGN OF GOOD WEATHER! now we'll be giving it on 30th of this month, the last exam. it's an easy A tbh, so I'm chill. Last night was a bit surreal or more like hopeful. Sooo I had my previous device's LCD screen absolutely wrecked. that's another tale. I don't wish to repair the device or recover the data. it's better to leave it all behind and initiate something better. Alzheimer's got the best outta me and I forgot my google password lmao. I fear I actually have Alzheimer's atp. so it's pretty much impossible to recollect the stuff I lost in that device. somehow, I logged into my old dc account via my aunt's device and had the last conversation with a friend I made recently. he's barely a friend, a good one to talk to cause he's just as strange. anyways, we talked till 4 am and that was the best last convo. i despise closures tbh, I leave without a notice and I want people to abandon me without a sigh. that is very weird and I'm tryna bring some benevolence outta me but realisation feels like death to me. so I avoid and escape. I only gave him a closure because I wanted him to know and he's claims to be an avoidant so it's easier. with others, it would be a vicious cycle and the guilt would never let me fleet. anyways, I'm trying to re-start things but if someone comes for me, I'm planning to just let them know. it'll be better than ghosting. I don't have any other means to reach out anyways. it's better to look forward. I fear I'll go bald with all this mess going on lmao, gotta try rosemary oil sm