Hell week na naman. Sabay-sabay ulit ang mga gawain. I thought I'd be able to rest considering the fact I've already finished competing at the DSTF and DSPC, kaso hindi eh. Malapit na akong ma-deploy for work immersion, tapos may practical research and entrep (short for the SHS entrepreneurship subject) pa. I haven't even started reviewing for the DCAT next month. Sa totoo lang, gusto ko na lang matulog. Not for a few hours like four or five hours, I want to sleep for a whole day. Kahit humilata lang buong araw and do nothing. Unproductive, pero at least may pahinga, ‘di ba? I want to forget all of my responsibilities and just exist without a worry, pero I'm afraid I can't do so dahil alam kong may mas pagod sa akin—ang aking mga magulang. Yes, some people might say na kahit student ka pa lang, you're allowed to feel tired. It's completely valid. But this is my own decision. I choose to keep going kahit minsan ayaw ko na or pagod ako. Alam ko kasi na my sacrifices cannot equal the sacrifices my parents have done for me, lalo na ang aking ama. It hurts to hear him say “Ang sakit na ng mga kamay ko,'“ then watch him work again a few minutes later. Isang taon na lang rin, senior citizen na siya. And I don't think he'll stop working until my sisters and I have finished college. Mag-cocollege pa lang ako oh. He still has a long way to go and I hate that. Oo, pagod ako, pero hindi pa ako p’wedeng magpahinga hangga’t may mas pagod sa akin. Hindi kami mayaman para pabayaan ko lang ang aking mga responsibilidad. Mahirap maging walang silbi sa bansang ito. Kaya hangga’t kaya ko pa, hindi muna ako matutulog. 10.17.26 - ms. kae