i truly suck at writing how i feel.. bcs i feel like i have tons of things to say but im not capable at convey it to words... but thankfully i am pretty good at crying so at least i could just feel my emotions but I'll try to write this one out i have been a dolly (vernon stan) and a carat (seventeen stan) for almost eleven years now and people (other dollys) would probably know that its kinda hard here since we dont get to see a lot of vernon updates (selca or whatever) so imagine me, a dolly who's somewhat kinda used to not having much updates of her idol, gets to see him having his own unit, and making music (which he love the most) and collaborating with people he looks up to.. also knowing that he's a private guy, and him sharing his most personal moments (his childhood videos) to be used as his solo song music video.... best believe im crying my ass off (i have not watched it when i wrote and posted this) and the fact that his enlistment is coming up soon truly makes me so ill like.. im a dying dog and my owner gave me a chocolate as my final treat before they put me down.. i am so insane about this whole thing if you cant tell🧘🏻‍♀️ like imagine going to a parasocial competition, you will definitely see me there (i am not proud of this but genuinely, whatever)