It's been a long time not hearing from me. I started my internship last Tuesday, and tomorrow will be my third day at the company. I'll say I got overwhelmed on my first day because I got subjected into immediate operation, due to the surge of applicants, and also from the fact that I am not used to speaking the language the way I used to as a child. I never had "that" awful experience, but back then, kids my age would point out how I speak different and it made me very conscious, until I completely stop speaking in that specific manner. I also felt the difference in treatment and that no one would really try to approach me. I am saddened that because of it I lost the language—but that's what I thought. Going in the company that has strict policy and working with people I have no knowledge of, made me really confident and in line with the behavior I assumed as completely loss. It is very unfortunate, especially, in a country where the basis of intelligence is according to how many language you can speak, your proficiency, and how articulate you had become. Aside from that, when the language as a basis isn't not fully acknowledge without being eyed by your own people. People may see language as a form of communication but it has lengths. If you are in the middle and you speak a language different from your mother tongue, you are not expected to initiate anything from the people. If you are poor, and you speak a language far different from your mother tongue, regardless of your educational attainment, they are not expecting you in continuing on speaking the language. What is truly the definition of communication barrier when the language is perceived as social status? — I hope I am not being too much for you, I just always have that bitterness in me. This is why people often misjudge me as introvert, when I'm just really got slap with mockery. SPEAKING of the company. I like working with them. People are all nice. Non-toxic environment. No allowance, but free foods everyday!! I like all the employees, including the security guards. Everyone is accomodating. They made me feel like me. Usually, it's my sister and I. I fully express myself in this language, and I am more proficient. I am delighted to speak with people in a language I much prefer. This is why I kind of have identity crisis due to code switching, and familial ties. People are different and we have to embrace difference. I am not saying that I don't like them, but my friends just don't know me as much as my family. Whenever people say eye is the mirror of the soul, behind my mind I think it really is language.