dear me, do you ever give yourself a chance? have you wondered if it will work? are you too afraid, or do you just not like it enough to push yourself? Is it because your standards and expectations are just too high? Or is it because you think there are too many better options out there? you keep predicting the ending of your story before even starting a new chapter. are you turning a blind eye and a deaf ear to the truth? are you so used to things falling apart that you don't know what to do when something might actually stay? you kill the potential just to save yourself from a hypothetical ending.