Hey guys (a long rant incoming) so I didn't shared how my meetup in my home for the very first time with my bestie go.. I had the best time I could ask for Alhumdulillah I although couldn't make a list to like get things done properly so we had a non scripted meet up which was just imperfectly perfect just talked abt the recent shit happening in "My Life" I had told her abt few things 4 days ago and I was quite depressed that time and am the kind of person who doesn't really like to talk abt dramas related to me its most of the time third party dramas we talk abt nothing really serious but for the first time I just expressed my situation in the most raw and real way to her without any sugar coat or skipping any parts and she realized how much disturbed I am and it amazes me coz we talked in texting but she was still able to realize and decided to come to my house when she never done this before ( coming to my house is complicated) to check up on me and hear my rant again to comfort me to tell me that am too kind and that I should be selfish sometimes so that I don't loose myself in the chaos lol Nobody ever gave me Response like this to my breakdown coz I dont like to be sympathized she was here for 3 hours and I just felt like I can move forward in my life again I felt recharged Alhumdulillah she said she is just here to comfort me so we just had a long cozy talk no phones no nothing just us then I showed her my memory box and we had good laughs reading the letters she wrote to me throughout the years then we talked abt her dramas and the contrasts between our lives and problems and dramas are soooo reallll like its crazy if we compare she and i have completely different life styles but we are still same I realized its not the time that we spend together with someone which makes us close its rather the effort both the parties do for eachother the efforts reflect the genuineness emotional intelligence is not a want its a need And Action speaks louder than words could everr I cant wait for our next meetup and Idk why but I have a feeling things are going to get better sooner then I will realize InshaAllah