i have always wanted to get out of this hell. hell as in, my workplace. the 2 coworkers in my department are friendly and comforting. and i stayed till May for that one special coworker. she told me she can't survive without me. i didn't want to abandon her. with how toxic the workplace is, i would've left within 4 months anyway. but some people convinced me to stay. last April, i was really excited to leave but then a new batch of students happened... and now they're attached to me emotionally and i've also bonded with them. so now, thinking about leaving makes me cry. at first when i told them i'm leaving, they didn't react much. then a new teacher arrived and was supposed to take over my class but she didn't stay. told my students: "a new teacher will continue this class" and they weren't happy. they looked unpleasant and sad. when the teacher left, they didn't bother to ask me about her lol. then as days went by, they started realising i'm leaving soon. and now, every single day, they go: "miss, you're leaving soon?", with puppy eyes. they're not children, they're 17 so i can't trick them. and WOAH, that question makes me sad. and to say.. i never wanted to be their teacher. i still remember telling my coworker: "damn, i don't want to start their theory". alas, if not this month, i still have to leave by august for college. so sooner or later, i'm leaving my dear students. i'll probably cry in the last class, HELP ME 💔. i'm comforting them now by promising hangouts but they'll have to comfort me soon 😭. i love them. they've been so respectful and attentive. never got angry, never slacked off or never made me angry. and i love them a lot for that </3