I didn't write a post yesterday, im really sorry!! In the first photo theres the box of sweets i got yesterday from my village community on the occasion of St. Nicholas Day. My biggest nightmare. Sweets all to myself. And just so you know, half of this box is already empty. Some people smoke because of stress, some drink and some deal with it. i eat. i eat so much. (Trigger warning for this sentence!) Thank god i have fast metabolism or something like that because I would be in a serious state of bulimia. When my mom finds out i ate so much, she probably would say that im selfish but she said that they are for me. Hell breaks loose when my mom has her period. The whole house is stressed. I hope she doesn't get it again during the holidays, because then the whole "stress-free" holiday break will be ruined. again. I did almost nothing today, i feel horible. the only thing I did was partially clean the room, clean the bathroom and dry a bouquet of flowers (for the results i'll have to wait like a week or so) i also studied a little bit for my geography test on monday but my head hurts so bad.. i shouldnt have laid in my bed till 11.30am 💔💔 its that damn phone, i wish i could just drown it. or teleport to the 1980s life back then was great and i would have watched the terryfying evolution of population and technology. I have so much to tell you guys but i dont have the strength right now. i just wish that people would respect each other, and that I would choose a different high school because this is hell. ive got another F from a test i studied, im really sad and my mom is mad. She told me thousands times that she doesnt care about grades! yeah right. i really tried. If only I were brave enough to cheat on tests. But im not, i shake like some sick person when i touch my phone or cheat sheet when taking a test. Its just another sign for me to study harder. study harder!!! if only my memory weren't so bad. i have to eat something normal but i just fought with my mom and she will find anything to bring up (to argue of course) when im eating. my head is blowing up oh my god please take my phone away. im going to cry again. im on my period. its winter. its cold. its night. its late. im lazy. im hungry. i did nothing today. sad music is playing. my head hurts. im sick. i wasted so much time today please i need sun, i need heat and the sun to blind me again, i hate winter so much can we skip it. im going to cry. im sorry that i didnt write a post yesterday i was really tired. love you all bye ❤️