This week was the last week I wear my rotc uniform. It makes me emotional knowing I won’t see these people after this week because we have finals next week before break. I’ve met so many great people and I’ll always love my unit. Currently I’ve been wondering if my decision to leave was the right one. I’ve told some people I’m kinda close with and they make me regret it because they’ve made me realize I’m more appreciated than I thought. I’ve been thinking about leaving for a while now and it’s been hard. Doing military work isn’t something I’m totally fond of nor interested in. I’m definitely someone who’s more interested in the arts. I love theater, I do ballet, and I think the best feeling ever is being on stage. Since I started rotc I’ve always gotten the feeling that I don’t belong. I always feel like an outsider. I’m definitely a quiet person so I know some of it has to do with me but the people in my unit are a lot more different than I am. And it feels like a lot of people who are higher rank judge a lot. I know majority of them and they definitely are quite two-faced. Especially my colonel. She’s kinda one of the reasons I’m leaving. But I am upset because the people I am kinda friends with I won’t be able to see them anymore. When I told one of the guys I know it really made me rethink my decision today. When I told him he said that it ruined his day and it made me feel like I was making the wrong decision. I’ve had a couple people say things similar and I’m not sure what to feel. I’m hoping I’m making the right choice but I guess we’ll find out next semester :)