im so disconnected from myself. Is this what I get for living in my head for my entire life? Don't ask me what my hobbies are, as I will come up with a painfully obvious lie to make up for the fact that all I do is rot in bed. I do like watching shows and films, but don't ask me what those medias are. Half of the time I don't care what I throw on. if it's not a hyperfixation, it's usually something for background noise or something I can turn my brain off to while I stare at the screen. I'm not an interesting person in the slightest. I do not have any hobbies, no sports, I have no friends and therefore talk to nobody, I don't read (yes im an idiot, sue me), i listen to the same music and have disorganized playlists, I don't even play any video games. Nothing interests me at all. I'm so bored all the time, but everything feels like a chore. Really all i look forward to is sleeping. The one hobby I used to love and do everyday was art, but I've been burntout for years. I was never really good at it anyways. I'm sure I've regressed in skill at this point too. I wonder what it's like to not have such a painfully mind-numbingly ache of boredom and emptiness sitting in my chest everyday.