hey yall 👋🤪 how yall doinnn?? so, to update yall on thinngs; i just got back to school last month (it hasn't even been a month if it's according to our school calendar) but im already failing miserabley. i mean, mentally im failing (which also manifest to my behavior and can literally ruin my whole ass academics). i lichrally don't have the motivation to study shitttt... i have a lot of readings to catch up to but all i've been doing is doomscrolling. i will only study if it's a few hours before the class starts. which is not fucking ideal cuz i be reading other course's materials in another class' time, that's how bad it is. there're more phenomenon (pHEn0meNon?!‽‽) like this that's an indication of my failure but i'll tell yall in another time since im not really ready to be that vulnerable rn sew. but, yeah, that's some of the tales of mine. and this saturday (which is tomorrow in my timezone) i have an appointment with a psychiatrist to like gauge wtf is wrong wid me.