this is not an easy read, of course. not a book to read in one sitting too, since it's too complex and jumpy. you need to read bits of it and let it marinate in your brain before it makes sense. martyr! is so ... human. with its complexities. cyrus' character might sounds obscure, appear polar opposites, rarely explored in a book, but that just shows how human he is. how contradictive, how fragile, how vulnerable, how he actually want to take a part in society and died as an "martyr" so his death is worth it. in my opinion, such act resembles how he really wants to live instead. and human crave of love, a department cyrus may didn't realized he carry that too since he was born. love from his parents and zee. he always felt alone, drown in loneliness and he thought his existence may not mean any thing to this world. it's once zee break down he only realize. i also love the story of roya/orkideh, leila, and sang on their perspective of love. this book didn't really write "love" out loud, but its take on it is mesmerizing. this book was not for someone who seek for grand, life changing paragraphs. it's just what we felt daily, close to our hearts. and that's why it is amazing.