I think I like chaotic loud people so much and all this time I thought it’s coz I wanna be them , but now I’m realising it’s their ability to not fucking care is what I am really into . And as much as I love to be called the cool chaotic kid , I hate breaking rules unnecessarily. Why do shit in name of coolness? Like okay if something is deeply unjust, let’s break that fucking rule or something. But if it’s really just beautiful and is the most efficient way , why are we undoing it just to make it seem that’s the coolest thing to do? Chaos is okay-coolish but uncomfortable in so many instances. And why the hell are all of us trynna be different? Ultimately that thought alone makes us all the same?!?!. And even if everyone is same , what the actual fuck is wrong with that? Who hates familiarity lol?!