only 8:32am and i feel heavily overstimulated and overbeared with work. i've been avoiding doing my finals work these past two weeks or so, and it's not doing that well for my stress. i have so many things to do: ; position paper (draft due in 4 days) ; visual novel flowchart ; posters & illustration brief ; process writing essay (overdue by 4 days now) and the noise is everywhere. i forgot my earbuds and earplugs, so there's next to no helping it at all. i have that heavy pit of anxiety and irritation boiling up in my stomach. all of this because of my procrastination, and my father wants me to be on deans list and i'm hoping to have good enough grades to not have to retake anything next term. final stretch, last two or three weeks. hanging in there. i just... need.... to lock in......... augh. also katseye released pinky up and im afraid of listening to it 😓😓😓

i have been sentenced to having a non-stressful self care and break day. so far (nearly 6pm) i've been doing nothing but sleep. the rest of my plan for today is : - full yummy shower - maybe read a book - play some games on my ps5 those are always nice activities that help me relax and wind down, so i think doing those before getting started on work again tomorrow would be a good idea. besides that, i'm reinstalling genshin impact after literaly years— i was a 2.4 player, i think? but i never got to the 2.4 like area and content, i just barely made it to liyue, last i played. i've been wanting to play it again to see how it's changed and i've honestly missed the gameplay, it was always so fun for me. hopefully i stick to it instead of playing for 5 minutes and then uninstalling. this thing has been in progress for 2 hours now and is only about halfway done, and i want to at least use up that much time (time taken to download/install) while playing rather than just drop it immediately and waste my time. ah, on another note! guess who got her photocards delivered and recieved! very happy with them and how they look!!! they came with sleeves and loaders for free; very happy with them ^0^

it's 8:30, i have a final work due at midnight, and i have to organize the information in our position paper for one of our other subjects. i'm locking in chat today was a good day overall, morning class was sort of uneventful and the evening class was more eventful. lunch was spent working and then napping, and once i got home i had a huuuuge dinner that got me very happy ^0^ i missed home cooking so much. i sort of wish my chair was some kind of office chair that could rise and fall cuz this chair feels too tall all of a sudden... anyways, stream golden hour part 4 by ateez <33