Sitting on a blue plastic sturdy lifeless chair, I was spacing out staring at the one point or should I say I was speculating on something that hadn't happened yet. My heart hurts as real as when I was in a relationship. But I didn't know why that weird thing happened out of sudden. I felt tired of thinking, moving, and using my head. Am I worried about what might happen? Anyways I went through something strange moment while waiting for the train. Maybe just because i'm emotional. I don't like this feeling. It's just uncomfortable. Ege bought me a starb version of granita for making me come early. I need to drink it one more time. Way better than Italian granita. At work, everyone was nice. Everyone talked to me nicely and i was happy about it. But there's one thing that I regret. I realized that my Japanese is collapsing these days. One of my colleagues said that she didn't understand what I was saying even though i tried to talk to them so they could grasp what I wanted to say with easy words. I'm sad and upset. Here now I have to train my Japanese as well.