enggak bisa tidur kemarin malam, trs baru bisa bobo pas subuh orz.. jam 7 bangun soalnya hari ini masuk kerja.. tp karena ngantuk banget (dan hari ini agak santai), jadinya sempet bobo lagi trs bangun kembali di jam setengah 8... hari ini cuma setengah hari jd jam setengah 1 udh pulang.. sampai rumah lanjut bobo terus bangun2 udah sore.. 💀

menangisi tanda tangan perberkasan yang belum selesai, tapi seneng jg bisa bertemu teman2 lagi.. terus aku pulang kesorean jadinya keburu ujan.. byir... 🧍‍♀️ also.. i started playing undertale today! (played for 1 hour.. just finished the intro..). btw ak beli krn lagi ada diskonan di steam xixixi <3

libur dan sepertinya baru masuk lagi 3 minggu lagi..? seperti biasa dari pagi ke siang rasanya "so-so". dibilang senang juga engga.. dibilang ga senang juga engga.. aku kerja seperti biasa... dan yaudah aja.. (mungkin i slightly enjoyed the day, but something made me anxious that's why i don't feel truly in peace today). malam harinya aku buka laptop terus brainstorming tentang hal-hal yang mau kulakukan selama liburan. beberapa hal yang jadi listku adalah: 1. melanjutkan WIPs gambar yang tertunda.. 2. nonton beberapa film & buku yg ada di waiting list & reading list. 3. i'm thinking about practicing my english, especially in the areas that i'm still lacking (writing & speaking). maybe i'll try some listening practices too by watching short movies without subtitles. 4. i'm planning to find short illustration course.. but out of courses that i had found these past days, i only found drawing courses for kids 😅 (maybe it's because of the holiday season..) 5. melanjutkan draft song reviewku yang belum selesai.. 6. (maybe) planning to meet friends 7. (maybe) doing a daily/weekly physical exercises 🤣 haven't done daily exercises for years.. (dulu jg cuma ngikutin video senam + workout dari youtube) 8. aku lupa (yg penting malah kelewatan).. memastikan berkas dokumen yudisiumku sdh selesai.. mungkin segitu dulu..

i don't know what's wrong with my mom today.. (she avoided me eventhough i didn't do anything). i mean.. i am okay if i had any mistakes, but please communicate them to me.. i tried to act like usual around her at first, but her reaction was still cold (only to me?) :( so i kept my distance & tried to stay quiet.. i am bad at handling rejections & can be impulsive at times.. so.. what happened today was quite stressful to me.. at least i tried my best to not hurt myself (i've been in therapy for more than a year and i am getting better now.. don't worry). then at the evening, i went out with my family........ i acted like usual & my mom played along too..? (now she's talking to me like usual again as if there was nothing happened before e__e she confused me somehow..) by the time i am writing this daily log, i am slowly making peace with what i feel.. instead of blaming myself, i can reframe it as my mom's problem because she's the one who doesn't be assertive with her feelings (scratches head).. moreover, we can't control people's perception about us.. jadi yaudah aja mau gimana lagi ya.. mari hentikan pusing2nya.. hari ini sy main game lg (nangis2 main game).. just downloaded P5 thanks to steam summer sale,,,

- membeli sapu - kasian bebeknya butuh koyo - bonus foto kucingku

had enough rest & made another photocard holder from felt.

- had a lot of rests again today + finished my felt poca holders (bcs i want to take them with me walking around the city for tomorrow <3). both pocas made by soyusoda (on twitter)! - posted life updates on my ig after a longg time.. 😅

baru tau ternyata gramedia jalma itu gramed blok m yg suka ak datengin pas masih kecil.. (skrg sdh direnov)..

hari ini bermain game dan beberes rumah.. tp knp bsk udh kerja lg..